Have been noticeably absent due to some significant family stresses and issues over the last couple of weeks. I can't go into it too much here but I can say that it is not within my immediate family (ie: hubby and kids) but with my next level of family. It has left me very tired with numerous migraines and worries.
Also Bethany's flu that has persisted on and off for the last 2 months has reared its ugly head yet again and from last Thursday until Wednesday night she (and we) did not have 1 full nights sleep. The worst was Tuesday night with about 5 hours sleep being had by her and myself (moved hubby into her room so he could sleep for work the next day). I marched her off to the doctor again on Wednesday and finally got some antibiotics and some chest cough suppressant and finally Wednesday night she slept through. Caitlyn, however, had other ideas and woke up at 3.30am (quite unlike her!) and stayed awake until 5.30am. Another 5 hours sleep had by me did not make for a very happy person yesterday. Was in bed at 9.30pm last night and she woke at 10pm. Pete was still up but I sat up ready to deal with her and started crying but before I could get out of bed, she stopped crying and was silent. So back to bed and thankfully I slept until 6.30am this morning. So it took 8 days but finally I had a full nights sleep.
I think Caitlyn's problem is the teeth that she is currently getting. About a week before she got her first one she woke up in the middle of the night. She is also getting Bethany's flu. The first night she woke up she was very snuffly and today has had a constantly running nose.
BUT... on top of all this I have still managed 2 successful losses. They have only been small but at least they are losses and I am further away from 96kg and I never want to go back there again!
I spent today catching up on everyone's blogs and after reading Lyn's I thought that I would revise my goals with smaller ones. I only had four goals and they were all biggies, get to 80kg, get to 74.9kg, get to 69.6kg and get to 65kg. So I have reassessed and given myself more realistic, smaller goals, some of which are quite close together. That way if I only lose a few 100 grams, like the last couple of weeks, it still brings me closer to a goal and something to feel good about.
I have also signed up for Paulene's new Springtime challenge and am determined to make the most of it. This one only goes for 6 weeks so am positively sure that only good things can come from it.
Well it is getting late and I still have dishes to do. I am dying to get in and spring clean the house but Caitlyn is at the stage where she wants someone to play with her all the time or if you take your eyes off her for a second she is randsacking her sister's playroom (well it will be they're playroom but at the moment it only has Bethany's toys in there - too many small bits). Might get mum to come around to pay her some attention while I clean.
Catch you all soon.
Bye
Friday, August 24, 2007
Monday, August 13, 2007
Another week begins
Well weighin Friday gave me a pleasant 1kg loss, down to 94.9kg. Not bad for only 4 days of tracking and 6 days of daily walks.
But I think I have managed to undo all my good work in just 3 days. Sometimes I think about that Pink song, "Don't let me get me"
It describes me perfectly. No matter how much I try, I always ending up doing something to ruin all my good work. I have no-one else to blame but myself, nobody else crams the stuff into my mouth and then I come down on myself for stupid little things. Like this weekend. I didn't go all out but it was just silly things. Like Friday I still did my aerobic exercises but didn't go for a walk, was pretty good all day but blew it that night by having some drinky drinks (haven't had any since before I got pregnant with Caitlyn so thought I could treat myself). Saturday didn't do any exercise at all, was pretty good again but once again had on small discrepancy which would have been enough to blow my points for the day and then yesterday again was pretty good for most of the day but splurged and had takeaway for lunch (haven't had it in over a week which is pretty good for us) and didn't do any exercise again.
As bad as that was I was pretty happy with myself when it came to the takeaway. Yes I did have a naughty burger but when it came to the fries, I had maybe 3 or 4 and then got up and walked away leaving the box on the table. I just didn't feel like eating them.
So today I steered away from the scales, not wanting to see how bad it could have been and was back to tracking and walking. I actually finished the day on 17 points, so have a few up my sleeve to try and help with my over indulgence. Not that I tried to save any, it's just today I didn't really feel like eating, had no snacks, just breakfast, lunch and tea. It's quite funny but over the last week I haven't felt like snacking really.
I need to try and make a battle plan to deal with weekends though. If I really want this to succeed I can't blow it every weekend. I also need to get serious with my water intake too. It is non-existant at the moment so I have a 1.25 litre bottle sitting on my kitchen bench tonight and it needs to be drunk from the time I wake up tomorrow.
I am also thinking about trying caffeine free diet coke. I read this on the Tony Ferguson Weightloss Program Website "While caffeine may at times slightly raise the metabolic rate, in the liver it inhibits or slows the conversion of stored fat back into glucose." And I am willing to try anything to help shift this weight. I was thinking about doing the program but don't have the $45 a week and really would prefer to lose weight using real food instead of meal replacements, even if it takes longer to do it.
So, pretty indepth update but if feels good to be blogging about all this stuff again. It's giving me direction and accountability.
But I think I have managed to undo all my good work in just 3 days. Sometimes I think about that Pink song, "Don't let me get me"
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
It describes me perfectly. No matter how much I try, I always ending up doing something to ruin all my good work. I have no-one else to blame but myself, nobody else crams the stuff into my mouth and then I come down on myself for stupid little things. Like this weekend. I didn't go all out but it was just silly things. Like Friday I still did my aerobic exercises but didn't go for a walk, was pretty good all day but blew it that night by having some drinky drinks (haven't had any since before I got pregnant with Caitlyn so thought I could treat myself). Saturday didn't do any exercise at all, was pretty good again but once again had on small discrepancy which would have been enough to blow my points for the day and then yesterday again was pretty good for most of the day but splurged and had takeaway for lunch (haven't had it in over a week which is pretty good for us) and didn't do any exercise again.
As bad as that was I was pretty happy with myself when it came to the takeaway. Yes I did have a naughty burger but when it came to the fries, I had maybe 3 or 4 and then got up and walked away leaving the box on the table. I just didn't feel like eating them.
So today I steered away from the scales, not wanting to see how bad it could have been and was back to tracking and walking. I actually finished the day on 17 points, so have a few up my sleeve to try and help with my over indulgence. Not that I tried to save any, it's just today I didn't really feel like eating, had no snacks, just breakfast, lunch and tea. It's quite funny but over the last week I haven't felt like snacking really.
I need to try and make a battle plan to deal with weekends though. If I really want this to succeed I can't blow it every weekend. I also need to get serious with my water intake too. It is non-existant at the moment so I have a 1.25 litre bottle sitting on my kitchen bench tonight and it needs to be drunk from the time I wake up tomorrow.
I am also thinking about trying caffeine free diet coke. I read this on the Tony Ferguson Weightloss Program Website "While caffeine may at times slightly raise the metabolic rate, in the liver it inhibits or slows the conversion of stored fat back into glucose." And I am willing to try anything to help shift this weight. I was thinking about doing the program but don't have the $45 a week and really would prefer to lose weight using real food instead of meal replacements, even if it takes longer to do it.
So, pretty indepth update but if feels good to be blogging about all this stuff again. It's giving me direction and accountability.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Don't count ya chickens....
You know the saying, don't count your chickens until they've hatched.
Well that applies to my last entry. I proudly sprouted how I was feeling better and ready to go but the next morning I woke up with a sore throat and got sick again real fast. Luckily it didn't get anywhere near as bad as last time but I still felt rough. And then typically, my 2 girls got it again too. I tell ya, I can't wait until winter is over.
Anyhoo, I weighed myself Friday and weighed in at 95.9kg, so still a kilo down from last month but 400g up from that last weigh in. So I am going to count this as my new starting weight because the last month has been a real waste.
Fast forward to today and I am proud to say I have been for a 30min walk everyday since and including Saturday. I have tracked everyday since Monday and am feeling really good. For Monday and Tuesday so far I have had 37.5/44 points. I haven't felt this good about myself in a long time actually. I know I still have a long way to go but I just feel good that I am sticking to it properly this time and not letting myself down. Now I just have to improve my water drinking and sticking to regular blog updates.
Bethany had hosted her first ever school assembly this morning. I was so cute watching her sing the National anthem, singing songs and even going up to the mic and calling the deputy principal to present awards. She is growing up so fast. Here is her offical school photo for this year.
Well that applies to my last entry. I proudly sprouted how I was feeling better and ready to go but the next morning I woke up with a sore throat and got sick again real fast. Luckily it didn't get anywhere near as bad as last time but I still felt rough. And then typically, my 2 girls got it again too. I tell ya, I can't wait until winter is over.
Anyhoo, I weighed myself Friday and weighed in at 95.9kg, so still a kilo down from last month but 400g up from that last weigh in. So I am going to count this as my new starting weight because the last month has been a real waste.
Fast forward to today and I am proud to say I have been for a 30min walk everyday since and including Saturday. I have tracked everyday since Monday and am feeling really good. For Monday and Tuesday so far I have had 37.5/44 points. I haven't felt this good about myself in a long time actually. I know I still have a long way to go but I just feel good that I am sticking to it properly this time and not letting myself down. Now I just have to improve my water drinking and sticking to regular blog updates.
Bethany had hosted her first ever school assembly this morning. I was so cute watching her sing the National anthem, singing songs and even going up to the mic and calling the deputy principal to present awards. She is growing up so fast. Here is her offical school photo for this year.
And Caitlyn is growing in leaps and bounds. She got her first tooth 2 weeks ago and now you can see it quite clearly whenever she opens her mouth. She says "bubba", "mum", "dad", and "OK" although not at the right people or things just babbling really but it sounds so cute. And last week she finally taught herself to go from sitting down onto her stomach so she crawl away so now I can no longer sit her down on the floor and try and clean as she just leans over and is off again in a matter of seconds. It's now chase the baby time! It is scarey to think that in just 3 month and a bit months she will be a year old. Time is just passing too quickly when it comes to my girls.
Well must log off now, need to do some cleaning while Caitlyn is having her last nap. Last chance I will get for the day so better make the most of it.
Catch you all again soon (promise!)
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