Have not had the best of weeks.
Am actually feeling rather low today. Have had family issues, money problems, housework, school issues, everything being left to me to fix and put on my shoulders and on top of that am feeling really depressed about the way I look and the fact that it is raining and cold and I don't have one piece of winter clothing that fits me as last winter I was pregnant and the winter before that I was almost 72kg!
So after spending most of today wallowing around in my own misery I hoped on the computer to catch up on everyone else's lives. Paulene is so hyped at the moment to be back on the weightloss bandwagon and back at the gym and also Jules who is hit virgin fat and Janene who is back to tracking and back in her jeans and I thought to myself "stop feeling sorry for yourself girl and do something about it"
So I am going to! I know I have been saying that for weeks but I have to now. For my peace of mind. I want to be happy again and the only one who can do anything about it is me. So fingers crossed everyone and send me your positive thoughts.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Winds of Change
Well things are achanging in this household.
Firstly, I am starting to get better. I finally got my voice back sometime late Thursday. I still wake up in the morning kinda blocked up but for the rest of the day I'm fine now. The same with Caitlyn. She seems to only be congested when she wakes and when she goes to bed. I weighed in on Friday at 95.3kg, a gain of 500g, which I was expecting as I wasn't really considering anything last week except for trying to get better.
Secondly, my baby (well they're both my babies so my youngest) turned six months old yesterday. Today, I moved her cot into her own room, out of our room. I moved Bethany into her own room when she was six and half months old so roughly at the same stage. Once I had done it I felt so sad. I walked around the big empty spot in our bedroom just thinking she's gone now, she's growing up. It is going to be so strange to sleep without her (I bet I will wake every hour). I just hope she sleeps well. She took her 2 naps OK in there today after I had moved it so fingers crossed.
BATHTIME!!!!
Finally, I think I am ready to stop thinking about doing something about my weight and finally start doing something. I have had ENOUGH. No more excuses. I am having so much trouble get up and down off the floor after playing with the girls, I have no energy and I run out of breath far to easily. I WANT TO FEEL ALIVE AND HEALTHY AGAIN!
And its time to start NOW!
Well off to bed now to try and get some sleep on my first night alone (except for Pete but you know what I mean) Boo Hoo.
Monday, May 14, 2007
What goes around, comes around
Well, as to be expected, I got Bethany's flu bug. And I got it bad.
By 1.30pm last Monday, after doing my last blog entry, I started getting a sore throat and by 4pm I had the fever and no voice. I was so bad that come midnight, I was still awake shivering. Pete ended up taking Tuesday off to care for the girls and I spent most of the day sleeping, of course, Bethany was totally over the flu by now. By Wednesday the fever had gone but my throat was still killing me but I had my voice back. Pete however got a bit of a cough and some aches and pains but that was it as he gets a flu shot from work so he only got it a little. Thursday I was feeling much better but Friday I woke up without a voice again and at this stage in time I still don't have it back properly. Friday afternoon Caitlyn started looking very pale and not so lively. Saturday she woke up with a really runny nose and fever. She fevered on and off all day and that night I rushed to the chemist to get her more Panadol and also discovered some infants cold and allergy drops to help with her nose. Yesterday she seemed more herself but still very congested in the nose. Last night she had some major issues, waking every 20 minutes from about 9.30pm. By 11.15pm I bit the bullet and nursed her in bed on her side while I sat up and dosed on a pillow. Once she had stayed asleep longer than 20 minutes I transferred her back to her cot, turned out the lamp and started to drift off. 15 minutes later, Bethany woke crying from a bad dream. So come midnight we finally settled down to sleep. Luckily Caitlyn stayed asleep however Pete had to get up for work at 5.30am and Caitlyn woke at 6am, so not a lot of sleep was had by us grown ups.
So the flu absolutely guttered this household and Caitlyn and I are still waiting to recover.
I did weighin on Friday for the first week of Paulene's challenge and had a 1kg loss but I think that was just due to not eating a lot while ill and now that I am back to eating, will have to do it properly, I just have to get over this bug.
Well just a quick update today to let you all know how things are going. I do so hope that I wake with a voice and some energy tomorrow.
By 1.30pm last Monday, after doing my last blog entry, I started getting a sore throat and by 4pm I had the fever and no voice. I was so bad that come midnight, I was still awake shivering. Pete ended up taking Tuesday off to care for the girls and I spent most of the day sleeping, of course, Bethany was totally over the flu by now. By Wednesday the fever had gone but my throat was still killing me but I had my voice back. Pete however got a bit of a cough and some aches and pains but that was it as he gets a flu shot from work so he only got it a little. Thursday I was feeling much better but Friday I woke up without a voice again and at this stage in time I still don't have it back properly. Friday afternoon Caitlyn started looking very pale and not so lively. Saturday she woke up with a really runny nose and fever. She fevered on and off all day and that night I rushed to the chemist to get her more Panadol and also discovered some infants cold and allergy drops to help with her nose. Yesterday she seemed more herself but still very congested in the nose. Last night she had some major issues, waking every 20 minutes from about 9.30pm. By 11.15pm I bit the bullet and nursed her in bed on her side while I sat up and dosed on a pillow. Once she had stayed asleep longer than 20 minutes I transferred her back to her cot, turned out the lamp and started to drift off. 15 minutes later, Bethany woke crying from a bad dream. So come midnight we finally settled down to sleep. Luckily Caitlyn stayed asleep however Pete had to get up for work at 5.30am and Caitlyn woke at 6am, so not a lot of sleep was had by us grown ups.
So the flu absolutely guttered this household and Caitlyn and I are still waiting to recover.
I did weighin on Friday for the first week of Paulene's challenge and had a 1kg loss but I think that was just due to not eating a lot while ill and now that I am back to eating, will have to do it properly, I just have to get over this bug.
Well just a quick update today to let you all know how things are going. I do so hope that I wake with a voice and some energy tomorrow.
Monday, May 7, 2007
That time of the year
Have been flat out looking after Bethany over the last few days. Poor thing isn't very well and on cruising the blogs this morning have found that Paulene and Karen's wee Rachel haven't been well either. It is definately that time of the year for the bugs to start hitting.
Weighed in on Friday, ready to start the new 12 week challenge, with my weight back to 95.8kg. Definately didn't help that I got TOM that morning either, but you can't help bad luck.
The in-laws popped up on Saturday and made me feel good though, eventhough my weight was up. They both asked me (seperate to each other) if I was back on track because I had definately lost weight. They both didn't believe me when I told them no, in fact I was at one of my highest weights since the start of the new year.
So, here I am today, raring to go for a walk or to the gym but can't as Bethany is home from school, lying on the lounge watching the Wiggles. Will have to wait for Pete to get home and go then.
There are little exercises I can do, like my situps, pushups, squats that I can do so will do a little of them. I have also gone out and bought myself, wait for it, a skipping rope. I am going to start off slowly, like doing 10 jumps a day, and then build up because its been ages since I have used a skipping rope.
I have also asked my mum and sister to buy me for my birthday (in 4 weeks!) the 20kg punching bag and gloves in this weeks Kmart catalogue for $49.99. That would be great. Whenever I feel moody I can just go out and beat that instead of eating a chocolate bar.
So that's it for today. Must go and tend to Bethany, she is sooooo bored and really wants to go to school but I have told her she can't cause she would make all her friends sick. Poor thing.
Catchya later
Weighed in on Friday, ready to start the new 12 week challenge, with my weight back to 95.8kg. Definately didn't help that I got TOM that morning either, but you can't help bad luck.
The in-laws popped up on Saturday and made me feel good though, eventhough my weight was up. They both asked me (seperate to each other) if I was back on track because I had definately lost weight. They both didn't believe me when I told them no, in fact I was at one of my highest weights since the start of the new year.
So, here I am today, raring to go for a walk or to the gym but can't as Bethany is home from school, lying on the lounge watching the Wiggles. Will have to wait for Pete to get home and go then.
There are little exercises I can do, like my situps, pushups, squats that I can do so will do a little of them. I have also gone out and bought myself, wait for it, a skipping rope. I am going to start off slowly, like doing 10 jumps a day, and then build up because its been ages since I have used a skipping rope.
I have also asked my mum and sister to buy me for my birthday (in 4 weeks!) the 20kg punching bag and gloves in this weeks Kmart catalogue for $49.99. That would be great. Whenever I feel moody I can just go out and beat that instead of eating a chocolate bar.
So that's it for today. Must go and tend to Bethany, she is sooooo bored and really wants to go to school but I have told her she can't cause she would make all her friends sick. Poor thing.
Catchya later
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