MIA

Sorry I have been missing in action for a while. Got a phone call the Saturday after my last entry from my uncle in Sydney saying, "surprise, we are coming over and will be there next Saturday". So it was panic stations and clean up madness for the last week but things are calming down now.

I went to the gym again the Friday after my first visit, but then did nothing Saturday, Sunday or Monday. That Friday I also had another 100g loss. I felt yucky for not doing anything for those 3 days so I went back to the gym Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday but Friday was far too flat out cleaning, shopping and organising. I was so sure that after all my good work I was going to have a decent loss for a change but guess what, I stayed the same! How disappointing!

Since then I have done no exercise and my eating has been attrocious (partly emotional, partly busy entertaining going outty) so I know for sure that I am due for a gain this week. But will be back to the gym tomorrow to try again.

Was watching some of the home video we have taken over the last couple of days and was playing eyetoy too and am totally disgusted by the way I look so it is up to me to do something about it. I have also realised that I have had barely any photos taken with Caitlyn since she has been born (did the same thing with Bethany) because of the way I look and I am so disappointed so it's time to move this big fat butt.

Well sorry for the direct and short entry but I have Bethany wanting to get out of the bath and Caitlyn squealing to be picked up so must sign off but will get back to regular updates again as I think that also helps me keep things under control too and when I don't gives me a way to go off the rails without feeling accountable.

I need you guys to keep me honest!

I did it! I did it!

Yep, I did it!

This morning I had 2 weetbix with skim milk before I took Bethany to school. Caitlyn was due for a nap at 9am so just as we walked into the gym she fell asleep. I left her in the creche and climbed on a treadmill. I did just a simple 30mins, no incline or anything. I did the first 10mins at 5km/h, the next 5 mins at 6km/h, the next 7mins at 5.5km/h and the last 8mins at 5km/h. I walked a total of 2.6km and burnt 179 calories.

I had a banana when I got home and an egg & salad multigrain sandwich for lunchI drank a litre of water for the day and had 2 lite choc chip biscuits for afternoon tea and stirfry and boiled basmati rice for tea.

The only bad thing for the day was Pete bought me home a choc sundae from Maccas and I ate it.

It was surprising how buggered but how human I felt after my gym session. I felt great and am going back on Friday (tomorrow Bethany and I are walking to school with one of her new friends and her mum) and I can't wait.

Well will log off now, got dishes to do and stuff. Just wanted to let you know that

I DID IT!

Back to bad habits

And I was doing so well last week too....

TOM has well and truly arrived and I seemed to loose my brain when it did. I have not done an ounce of exercise since last week, no water consumed and too much bad food eaten (especially chocolate and bread).

I am feeling fat and bloated and am still in a considerable amount of pain eventhough I have been going 3 days now. I still hurts just to stand up straight.

But I have had enough. Too much whinging, too much pitty and way too many excuses. It is nearly 8 weeks gone in the new year and I weigh just as much (if not more) than I did at the start.

Tomorrow no excuse. I WILL go for a walk tomorrow or even try and get to the gym (even if it is just t0 use the treadmill for a 30min walk) If I do go to the gym I will time it so Caitlyn falls asleep in her pram when I get there (will walk around the shops next door if I have to first), leave her in the Creche and then do my 30mins. If I can't manage that then I will go for a walk tomorrow night. I WILL.

I WILL have breakfast. I WILL drink water. I WILL make a good choice for lunch and I WILL have a good dinner.

One day at a time, right? If I can do this tomorrow, then there is no reason why I can't do it Thursday too, and then Friday and then there is no excuse.

One thing I am expecting, is a definate gain this week, so be it. Let's hope it will be the last for quite some time!

Sharing....

Well I know that I said I might take it easy on Tuesday but instead I did 80 situps (broken up in sets of 40), 5 mins on my mums stepper, and then for the first time in simply ages I got out for a 30min walk by myself as both girls were in bed at 7.40pm. I just wanted to share with you the photo I took of the beautiful sunset that evening. It just seemed so beautiful, maybe because I finally had some me time but anyhow....

Well then on Wednesday I had a slack day. I was really starting to feel sore but I still did my morning set of situps but that was about it. Pete took me out for dinner for Valentine's and I tried to be as good as possible, although some naughty pavlova and 5 lindt choc balls crept into my mouth during the course of the evening.

Yesterday exercise was non existent. I am really feeling yuck actually as TOM is taking its time to start but still giving me the nigling pains so no exercise today either.

Speaking of today, weighin was a 100g loss. I am happy as it is still a loss. I know that I was really good at the beginning of the week but my overdue TOM maybe affecting my result so I'll take it and hopefully have a better loss next week once TOM finally starts properly and is finished.

Well must dash (how snobby does that sound?) Bethany is due to finish school in half an hour. She is now doing full days at preschool, 9am-3pm. It's so odd. This is only her third full day but it is amazing how much I can get done around the house now that she is at school. But I miss her heaps.

Anyhow, BYE.

Trying

It's been a while since I've updated, didn't realise how long actually.

My weighin on Friday provided me with a 200g loss, so was happy with that considering I was expecting a gain after my bad behaviour over the last weekend.

I tried to do better this weekend although a couple of naughty things got through.

Today I was pretty good though. I did 30 sit ups when I got up this morning. Then I walked with Bethany to school (we have been doing it at least twice a week). We did the 20 minute walk there and when I came home with just Caitlyn I put on my MP3 player and did it in 12 minutes. Then I did another 30 situps and then went and hired a lawnmower and mowed our front and back lawns.

And tonight I feel like a pile of jelly!

Well just a quick update for tonight. Am rather shattered and Caitlyn had a mixed up day with her naps and feeds so I may be up a couple of times tonight so best I get to bed.

Will do a more indepth entry later.

Trying

Well I'm trying to be good. Today I have had 19pts with dinner over and done with. Because I am not breastfeeding I can go back to the normal points system so I am doing pretty well. Unfortunately my water intake today was nil and I had planned to go for a half hour walk tonight at 8pm but Pete got a work call out so I had to stay home with the 2 girls instead (hence why I am now sitting here doing this entry).

I am so determined to try and do this now due to some surprise motivation. Yesterday when I was doing my scrapbooking I was going through photos from Bethany's third birthday party(just 19 months ago) and found this one of myself.(sorry for the quality, it wasn't actually of me but the kids playing games, I was standing on the side watching)

I never actually realised how much weight I had lost last time. Everyone kept saying it but I always saw myself as still being large. Seeing this photo yesterday really hit home how well I had done and how quickly things went down hill(just 5 months after this photo I had my miscarriage and stacked on 10kg). I want to get back there again. I know it is going to be hard, especially with bubby but I want to give it my best effort. It has now been 3 months since she was born and now it is time for me to get my act together so I can be the best mum I can be to her and Bethany.

And now on my favourite note, here is a new favourite pic of my girls.

Only myself to blame

Well week 1 weighin has been and gone. After starting the challenge last Monday I remembered that when I lost all my weight before, it was more productive for me to weighin on Fridays (due to naughty eating that can take place on the weekend, raising my weight and ending in disappointment). So I weighed in on Friday and had a loss of 800g, down to 94.8kg. I know it could have been better as I ate some naughty stuff on Wednesday and Thursday but so be it.

And then what did I do after weighin, ate takeaway on both Saturday and Sunday so I bet today my weight has skyrocketed again. No-one to blame but myself, must build myself a bridge and get over it and get back on track again.

I caved into the takeaway due to having a rough trot with Caitlyn. I think she is going through her 3 month growth spurt. Before Friday she was going to bed at 7.30pm, waking at 2 or 3 and then at 6 or 7 and then feeding 4 hourly. Now ever since Friday she is still wanting to go to bed at the same time (screams and carries on if we try to keep her up later, even if her bedtime feed isn't due to 8.30, she wants it at 7.30) then waking at 12, then 3 or 4, then 6 or 7 and then during the day she is barely making it 3 and a half hours between feeds and when having all these feeds, she isn't drinking the whole bottle. It is quite tiring, hence not feeling like cooking, although she is happy when she isn't feeding or sleeping!

Bethany started at her new school on Thursday and is liking it. She found her friend from her old school at playtime(she is in a different class) and they played together at play time. And today she has come home raving about a new friend she has make called Ella. She already wants to invite her to her birthday party(in June).

She currently is attending from 9-12 Monday to Friday to introduce them back to being at school. Next week she goes to school Mon, Wed & Friday from 9-3 and Tues & Thurs 9-12 to get them ready for full days and then the following week she goes Mon-Fri 9-3. Eventhough she went to school Thurs & Fri last week, today was actually my first day on my own with Caitlyn as last week I had Pete home with me on Thurs and my mum with me on Fri. So today I came home, put Caitlyn down for a nap as she had fallen asleep in the car and actually did something for myself. I didn't do any dishes, any washing, any tidying. I did some scrapbooking. The first time since Caitlyn was born and geez I miss doing it. I am now doing a 2 page layout from Bethany's third birthday. I have so much I want to scrapbook and just not enough time to do it, although once Bethany starts school full time, I may be able to spend 2 days a week doing it (in between Caitlyn's nap times that is!)

Well, best I log off now, Caitlyn has just woken and Bethany wants me to play with her too. I hope I have a pretty good week weightwise to make up for my bad start but if I do gain, well so be it.